It's August again. Whoo hoo. The birthday is this week, and I'm not celebrating per usual. Trying to keep it as low-key as possible without expectation. Having no expectations is a good thing. Avoids so much disappointment later. This year I plan to go to work and stay all day, even though I don't really have to. Maybe go to my dad's gig later. Or not. The only thing I really want to do is have a massage, which I might do in the afternoon. We'll see.
Sometimes I wonder what life would be life if I were traditional. What would happen if I were the person who enjoyed having big birthday parties, wanted to have a big wedding, two kids and large celebrations around each of those events? What would life be like if I participated? Maybe nobody would celebrate with me, but maybe they would. Maybe I would attract different people -- people who were so happy that I was alive that they would be moved to celebrate the day. My life experiences would be completely different, along with the people in my life.
But then I guess I would have needed to have had different parents, so I guess I'll choose my life -- however flawed.
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